I am finally done with this horrible semester (you know horrible is an understatement). I looked at myself and I can't recognise myself anymore, both inside and out. Skin. Weight. Haggardness. Attitude.
At last! The holiday is here for me to set things back onto track again. Starting my intense jogging thang from tomorrow onwards. Abstaining from sweetened drinks because the amount of coke I've downed to keep myself awake (coffee alike) during this period of time makes me worry about diabetes and kidney failure. I hope I can stick to my resolutions? I love bubble tea TOO MUCH. Sometimes I wonder why I do such harmful things to my body.
This semester is the acclaimed worst out of the 8. But I made it worse for myself. That's why I hate myself. Sleeping an average of 2 hours and always waking up in shock. I swear I wouldn't do this to myself anymore.
Discipline is like a very fragile thing. Once you lose it deteriorates exponentially. Because bad or worse, it's not a big difference anymore. That's what happened. I don't want to be like this. Next sem I will be good.
Actually I can't wait for next year. I've pretty much screwed up this year and I just want to be alone so I won't create more shits that implicate other people as well. As such I'm gonna spend most of my time reading books. I know I know, I was never a book person but there are some which still interest me.
I hope me living this simple life can bring me back to the right path. I really cannot accept my 2014 version. She's horrible.
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